Learning to embrace my inner light

I’m the type of woman that likes structure and organization. I appreciate a flow of things but in life, things do not always flow. Sometimes you have to create your own flow and just go with the moment. At a young age, a sense of fear of the world around me was instilled in me. For a while, I didn’t realize how those fears were holding me back from fully enjoying life. Sure I have an amazing boyfriend and a supportive group of friends and family but there were times even with them when I would find myself not fully present.

Queue generalized anxiety disorder, and I’d be worried about every little thing that could go wrong, not just in the moment but the chain reaction of things down the line. Now I’m at a point in my life where I don’t want to live in that box. I want to fully experience my life. So I’ve been on this journey for the last few years to heal past traumas, love myself more, grow outside of my comfort zone and evolve into my best self. Along my journey, I’ve learned some key lessons to help me grow, heal and evolve.

Self-Awareness

First I had to become more aware of the root of my thoughts and behaviors and make a conscious effort to do things differently. Trust, this is not a skill I’ve mastered yet but one I’m definitely working on. Being aware of how you show up in the world and why you do the things you do is essential to shedding away old habits. This is not an opportunity to become more critical of yourself but it is a chance to oblectivly look at yourself and make changes.

Be present

For someone with anxiety, it’s easy to find yourself worried about the future or the past. Instead, I try to focus on the things I can change and let go of the rest. I have to make the decision to be fully engaged in the moment and worry less about how things could have been or what I should be doing next. “Live less out of habit and more out of intent.

Let go

It’s easy to keep doing things the way you’ve always have done them because it takes the guesswork out of it. But when you’re mindlessly doing things on repeat, you’re not giving yourself any opportunities for growth. Letting go of old habits usually means forming new habits. Find freedom in letting go of old ways that no longer serve any goodness for your and make the decision to make room for new ways of doing things.

Love + Believe in yourself

Above all else love yourself for who you are at your core and believe in your unique talents and gifts. You were given a unique perspective that has been defined by only your experiences. What you have to offer is valuable and important. If you believe in yourself, nothing can stop you from reaching your goals. Let your light shine. Don’t sleep on yourself.